Your hand in mine eternally

It seemed God had responded to the situation. Kavern passed away on Friday afternoon at 1.30. I really thought I was ready to let him go cos I really wanted the best for him not myself. I was not there when he passed away. I was supposed to be there on Friday cos normally I would go there to keep an eye on him cos everyone works on Friday except me. But this Friday was Wesak Day, a public holiday so the mother asked me not to go cos the father was around. I had to move out from his home cos the father had been disrespectful towards me but I think there's no point to further elaborate on that. He didn't know why I left, I wish I could explain to him but he was too ill to understand it.

Since I moved out in early April, I still went to visit him almost everyday when the father was not around. His condition started to worsen day by day.

I am angry and very sad. I went to the church meeting on Friday night and during the worship session and prayers, I could smell the scent of the fragrant oil, which was used by his father to anoint his head during his last surgery. I just thought that he was there with me.

Somehow I thank God for taking him so that his soul can rest in peace in the Lord's unfailing love.

`WHEN I DIE, PLEASE BURY ME STANDING COS I SPENT MOST OF MY LIFE KNEELING'

Will you take him when he comes to your door?

Sometimes we have to learn to suffer in silence in order not to make things worse and for the benefits of others. That's what I call sacrificial love. I always thought that my life is tragic but not anymore when I compare myself to Kavern. He is bedridden and like a skeleton clad with his own skin. He is neither dead or alive. Oh God, if you have no intention to heal him then please take him. My soul is dying bit by bit seeing him like that. Pleas set us free from this situation.

Don't let love pass you by

Who are you? What will you do if you only have one month to live? We are all stuck here, aren't we?

The other day, my friend said something very true. You can love someone but to have someone to love you is another question. Yes, we don't fall in love every day do we? So don't let love pass you by!