Lead me....

The other day, while spending a whole day in a meeting, I carefully scrutinising everyone's facial expression and gesture, the way they talked , the way they moved, the way they treated me and suddenly I realised that I don't belong there. Oh Lord, take my hand and lead me to where I belong, where I can feel a sense of belonging and feel the closeness with You again. Lead me....

Mimi

Today, I dumped my work aside and eloped with my best friend Mimi to our little escapade. Mimi knows exactly how to make me happy. We can have the whole world under our feet when we are together but we don't get to be together often. We are both tortured souls who can impart healing to each other. She always appears when I am troubled as if she was part of me...If I lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Chasing Cars

Stillness

The day has bid farewell, greeted by the twilight. It has been so long since I last saw the stars... I have almost forgotten how the moon looks like...My beloved colleagues in Sudan told me that they could hear gunfire from a close distance. The peoples were shooting at the stars as my colleagues concluded. what a sweet lie to comfort me, I thought. I try to imagine their fear which is laced with hope, hope for better days, for silence, stillness and peace....I wish the wind would whisper my prayers to them.....

Crying darfur 2008

Let’s talk about Sudan. How many people actually know what is going on in Sudan? Well, the situation there is so complex that I can’t really come up with an opinion. You see, normally, I am very opinionated....Genocide, crime against humanity, UNAMID (Peace Keeping Troops), UN Security Council, ethnic cleansing by the central government..... JEM, the rebels...what else...but one thing I know is that the peoples there need help....especially protection. It is such a great challenge to deliver humanitarian assistance there. This year alone, from January til March, 84 humanitarian personnel were kidnapped, not to mention 75 humanitarian vehicles were hijacked.
During the Rwanda era, the peace keeping troops pulled out, indirectly allowing the ethnic cleansing to go full scale. As a result, hundred thousand of peoples were brutally wiped out including women and children. I pray that history will not repeat itself, I pray that God will cut off the power of darkness in Sudan, we have to do something to change the outcome this time around. Our action comes with power and grace, let’s take action.... write a letter, lobby the Sudanese government, sign a petition, just do what ever you can....let's pray

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The beauty of being tired is that you don’t have the energy to think whether you are happy or not. Everyone needs someone, I guess. I want to watch horror movie at the cinema but no one wants to watch it with me. I miss my Russian girlfriend. She left her blueberry chocolate in the fridge for me but I didn’t go to pick it up. I miss my colleagues who are in Sudan. I haven’t called my parents for the past two weeks. I spend too long hours at the office these days. Sarah, the traveller, left a note on my bed before she left.