I hope......

I live my life believing in hope and God because that is the only way to keep me going! The other day, I was persecuted by an atheist again, he tried to denounce the existence of God. Well, I really wanted to tell him that the reason I am still alive is because of God's grace but yet there is no solid scientific evidence to prove it. God is so abstract, it's like the wind, you can feel it but yet you can't see it.

Everything seems so bleak sometimes and I keep telling myself there is going to be better days. We all have died like Christ and resurrected again and again in life and sometimes I wonder when it's going to end! No, we all gonna resurrect and shine like Christ so that glory will be upon him cos we are made in God's likeness and he has walked with us and we are not alone. I keep telling myself!

A friend is fighting with cancer again! I pray with my tears and hope and hope and hope that everything is gonna to be alright again.

Oh Lord, if I wiped your feet with my tears, would you save him once more?

Rented crowd!

I am so sorry for the long silence again. I have been busy socializing, attending parties back to back...crazy world. Last Friday nite, attending opening ceremony of an art exhibition at my fave art gallery. As usual, it went on and on and turned into a party. So, we all started dancing the nite away...there were drinks, snacks, good vibes and interesting peoples...and many gays! My world has become so queer recently. The party went on til 2.30am. Yes, it's not just an art gallery...is a community!

Saturday nite, attending pool side birthday party at an embassy! Beautiful place....another crazy party...I was fire dancing and fed with so much drink. In the end, I started dancing with this Brazilian guy..doing Brazilian dance. Then eight of us packed into a car, we were basically sitting or semi lying and overlapping each other, heading to another party... The last time I did something so crazy like this was when I was in Bangkok, we did that in a tuk-tuk! Madness!

At around 2am, we started club hopping then headed for our supper-beef noodle soup! It had been a while since I drank so much...My head was aching! Then, I told myself, enough partying!

Recently, I met so many nice peoples who appreciate my talents and believe in me. Life has become a celebration again even though life is still filled with ups and downs but being surrounded by nice peoples make every tough moment much much bearable!

Then, Sunday afternoon. F and I walked to the Lake Garden to be up close and personal with mother nature. It was a good way to cure my hang over! We sat by the moat, swans watching! It was really a pleasant day. Another fren came to join us and we managed to see the sunset! Then, we went for beef noodle soup again (just can't have enough of it!) and followed by Turkish coffee at an Arab restaurant!


Now I have a new occupation: rented crowd!